During meditation I can see a clearer picture, and can correctly and clearly understand what I am feeling. I’m someone who has suffered a great deal in his life…from those closest to him. When I was a child, I didn’t have the courage to respond to them. When I grew up, the moment I was with certain people and felt that they wanted to hurt me, I would erupt and see them in the image of the people who hurt me, without thinking about whether they were really my problem or not.
Today when the officer on duty walked in during meditation and made a lot of noise, it agitated me. In the past I would react immediately, do something, express my agitation. Today I continued to sit, and half a minute later he went out and I could return to my stillness. At the moment, there is no agitation…it’s been over for a long time.
I really love this group. It helps me be calm, patient, relaxed, to examine things.